Ketigapuluhlima

Sleep deceives me.

Ketigapuluhempat

Awak.
I hope you dun mind.
Each time I think of you I started to rhyme.
I am not as typical as you expect me to be.
I dun always say what you wanna hear.
I dun say I miss you as often as I should.
I am scared to tell you I love you.
In truth, I dunno how to.

Awak.
Saya tak sama macam mereka.
Saya tak petah berkata kata.
Saya tak pandai mengolah cinta.
Saya juga tak punya apa apa.

Awak.
I think of you so often.
As soon as the sun began to shine.
I still think of you at this moment.
And the clock showing quarter past nine.

Awak..
There is only hurt here..
Nothing more can be done..
The blood still trickling..
And Im far from being fine..

Awak.
You chase away my fear.
You lighten my days with laughter.
You make me smile even when Im sad.
You make me grin like a sly cat.

Awak.
Im thankful for your presence.
Im grateful for your kind thoughts.
I know it looks like not much.
But Im starting to sway a little.
Im starting to lose my balance and wanting to fall.

Awak.
Please.
Dun catch me just let me be.
Im not ready for this.
Leave.
You dunno what you get yourself into.

You are hurting yourself.
And I am already bleeding.

Only hurts live here.

Ketigapuluhtiga

I feel bad at times for being untruthful to you.
I just can't say what are my thoughts dear.
I fear for you.

Not for me.
You might flee.

Not for a while but forever.

I wish I could be shameless snivellous person at times.
So I could tell you.
I could even tell the world.
What I really feel inside.

But.

What good does it make baby?
For I have found solace in each pray.
I have told Allah about you.
I think that's enough gesture.
It is sufficient.

It is sacred.

I don't have to tell you after all.
It is okay if you not knowing.

After all, I am in love.
This is what people do when they fall in love.

Be patient and wait in line. Patiently.