Keenampuluhsatu

My mom passed away.

Keenampuluh

Saya pelik dengan keadaan semasa.
Masa kini orang pentingkan luaran.
Superficial.
Makin kurang yang mahukan hati yang baik berbanding wajah yang menarik.

Asal gemuk, huduh.
Asal kurus, cantik.

And I genuinely thought it was her time.
And this was carried with her to the grave.

Oh.
How I was wrong.

To ugly people, please work hard and earn more monies.

Then we go do plastic surgery.
Yay!

Kelimapuluhsembilan

I just want to meet you.
See you in flesh and blood.
Touch your face.
Smile into your eyes.

I just want this chance.
To be the right now person.
Even if not the right ones.

I just want to spend time.
With you.
Love unconditionally.

Let me.

Kelimapuluhlapan

I am 38 now mak, abah.
I have never been as lonely as right now.
I miss you abah.
I miss you mak.

Kelimapuluhtujuh

You are not him.
You are way too harsh.
Insensitive. Chauvinist.
Rude. Obnoxious.

But still.
You are the one sitting in front of me.
Laughing at my silly jokes.
Making obscene gestures.
Throwing insult one after another.

I wish I never met you.
Coz now Im wishing hard not to lose you.

Please.
Get well soon.

Kelimapuluhenam

I can't sleep tonight.
I know not why.
But I guess you have crossed my mind.
I weep, as I say, goodbye.

Goodbye b.
Thank you for the memories.

Kelimapuluhlima

Cinta masih ada.
Cuma kurang rasa.
Kerna engkau tiada.

Kelimapuluhempat

I can see you.
I can feel you.
But I can't touch you.
I could never have you.

Yet I am thankful for every bits of chances.

Kelimapuluhtiga

Awak.
How I wish to be yours.
To mend our hearts.
To live happily ever after.
I really want to be with you till the end.
Until our last breath.
I want you more than life itself.
You are the air that I breathe.

I wish I could.

How I wish.

Kelimapuluhdua

Rajuk rajuk juga.
Tapi cinta tetap cinta.
Rindu juga masih menerpa.
Padamu tuan tempat bermanja.

Kelimapuluhsatu

Rindu ini sudah bertuan.
Ada nama disetiap perasaan.
Dalam jiwa dalam pernafasan.
Tiap detik syukur padaMU Tuhan.

Kelimapuluh

I want to put a stop to whatever we are doing now.
I want to go as far as possible.
I want to let you live your life.
And never be sad again.

I wish you every happiness.
I wish for you to be safe always.
I wish for your happy ending.
I wish for your heartache to disappear.
I wish she will catch your tears.

Keempatpuluhsembilan

Rindu.
Masih milik kamu.
Yang sedang berteleku.
Dalam kamar hatiku.

Kamu.
Jauh di awan nan biru.
Senyum dibibir manis bermadu.
Lantas memberikanku sejuta rindu.

Senyum.
Sambil mata berkaca.
Degup hati membaca.
Barisan ayat ayat berbaur cinta.

Cinta.
Bukan milik kita.
Tapi tetap cinta.
Walau apa sekalipun namanya.
Tetap sama rasanya.

Keempatpuluhlapan

Demam yang pertama.
Di tahun yang baru.
Semoga Allah merahmati.
Saki baki usia kita semua.

Sakit itu kifarah.

Keempatpuluhtujuh

Di dalam hati ini.
Ada seorang lelaki.
Duduk seorang diri.

Hati ini rumah kamu.
Menetaplah di sini tanpa rasa ragu.
Tidak, tiada lain selainmu.

Ku harap jangan pergi.
Kekal diam di dalam hati.
Biar sampai mati.
Takkan ada lagi.